What is Your Dream?

I recently think a lot about what I really like, what to pursue, and what I really want to dream. Because I start.. to feel lost.

I mean, I told everyone I was gonna apply for a master in film production, I was gonna be a great film editor, and I was gonna study harder. But the truth is I'm not so sure anymore.

I discussed it with my boss and he asked me one question that hit me real hard, "Will you be willing to spend the rest of your life editing videos?"

I did not need so much time to think of an answer. I replied him right away, "No, I don't want to," which led to the next question, "What is your dream?"

What is my dream?

I could not answer that question.

I know I love traveling. I love talking, teaching, creating something, helping people, making some videos, doing some humanity projects, or get involved in a movement. I love all of 'em. But I'm not sure.. those are really what I want for the rest of my life.

Maybe I was born to be a total filmmaker—one that could change from directing to producing to editing, and so on. Since I'm not into one specific job. Maybe it's documentary, instead of fiction because I want to be involved in the real situation. Or maybe I should just be a teacher? A creative content creator in advertising? Someone working in the United Nations?

I have no idea.

And being an impulsive person means I often make a decision without thinking thrice. Actually I booked a ticket to Singapore few months ago. So I'm flying with no legit purpose, this weekend, and alone.

I guess I'll try to figure it out on my way there. Anyway,

"Here's to the ones who dream.

Foolish, as they may seem.

Here's to the hearts that ache.

Here's to the mess we make."

Mia Dolan, La La Land (2016)